I’ve done just enough this weekend to get a few things caught up – dishes and laundry. The two never-ending household chores that can’t be left to chance…
But it felt good. Its nice to have cleaned off counters and full dressers. Other chores will get taken care of this week as my energy comes back – and I’m really trying to “take it easy” the way that I should.
Honestly, there have been really sweet moments with my family this weekend – and really sorrowful moments, too. I’m one to want to “mark” milestones in my life, so my husband and I are talking about ways to have a simple memorial service of sorts to commemorate the loss of our baby. Maybe we’re going to plant something to keep – we haven’t talked it all out yet – but I need something.
I had a memorial service as part of my recovery from my abortion and have a small child’s New Testament with my baby’s name inscribed on it. I don’t want to do the same thing here, but I want it to be something memorable and sweet. I know it won’t always hurt so bad – so I want something tangible like that. If any of you have any suggestions – we are definitely open to them.
If you have experienced or know someone who has experienced miscarriage or pregnancy loss and memorialized it in some sweet way, please feel free to share it.
In the meantime, I am making my home sing today by playing the Twila Paris CDs I copied to my iTunes on my computer. I can turn it on and it plays in the background while we do what needs done. Click the link below to hear the song that really speaks to me right now.
Maybe it will speak to you, too.