it’s been almost a week since I’ve written anything here! How does that happen? I’ve been doing some personal devotions and journaling more, so maybe my brain is tricked into thinking I’ve done all the writing I need to…
And then there’s the realization that in just a week, my baby will be ONE year old! That can’t be possible. Little Tater Bug is just a loving, sweet, funny little character. She is petite like a pixie – she’ll wrinkle her nose at you to get you to smile (especially if she’s doing something she shouldn’t). She’s fearless (don’t ask how many times she fell on the stairs today!) and curious! She’s pointing at things she wants, signing the word “please” and trying to say many words. Her hair, which was so thick & black when she was born and fell out after a few months, is coming in nice & thick again, but in a shade more like her sister’s. Some days it looks red, but others it’s just a pretty, shiny brown.
I think about the past year and what we’ve gone through. When we’ve been in the middle of some of the tough spots, it felt like time stood still. But looking back, wow – what a ride!
I’m settling into my Mommy role. It’s not easy. I’m not really unselfish by nature, and there are moments I don’t think I want to be a mom. (There I said it.) But, when sanity returns, I’m aware of the precious and amazing gifts I’ve been given in my husband & two daughters, and I’m so humbled and grateful. God is calling me to serve my family – and while that wounds my stubborn pride so deeply, that’s not something I can’t live without. My family on the other hand – well, I wouldn’t trade them for all the chocolate in the world!